Sunday, February 27, 2011

My transplant heroes and friends.

My surgeon! Dr. Hassoun. He is the best!

DianeWeissmuller- 19 year post liver transplant friend. Her father-in-law was Johnny Weissmuller- Tarzan! I am holding the book she wrote and signed for me.

Karen and Gayle. 2 and 6 year post liver transplant friends

Janet- my transplant buddy. She had a liver and kidney transplant 2 days before me.

Nurse Mary!!! Another Angel and one of the reasons I am alive today.

NP Tanya. Another Angel... I have a lot of Angels! She made the call to Joe and my parents that they had the perfect liver! She is my fist pump friend!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

FAQ's

This is not only a new journey for myself but also a new journey for my family and friends so I wanted to answer some frequently asked questions. There is no question off limits so please email me or leave me a comment if you have any questions that are not covered.



Did you see any Angels or the Gates of Heaven? 
No, I wish I would have seen Joe's Mom but I don't have any memory of any white lights or Angels. My only vivid memory is when I hallucinated that my surgeon didn't have any eyes.
 
Do you know anything about your donor?
Donor information is kept confidential. I am able to write the family a letter and they have the option to receive it or deny it. The letter cannot contain any personal information and after one year, they can choose to reveal their identity.

Are you in pain? 
I have some pain around the incision but its not that bad. They cut all my nerves and stomach muscles so I am still numb in the stomach area. I have more pain in my back from compensating having no stomach muscles.

How much medicine do you have to take daily and what are the side effects? 
I take a lot of medication but it should taper off in the next six months. I take 2 pills at 8:30am, 8 pills at 9:30am, 6 pills at 7:00pm and 2 pills at 9:00pm. I also take 1200mg of magnesium 4 times a day and swish and swallow some nasty liquid after every meal and before bed. My main side effect is that my hands shake. There goes my dream of being a surgeon! I also have a short temper since I am still on a high dose of steroids. 

Can you live a normal life or do you have restrictions?
I have what I call a "new normal life".  I have a strict diet I have to follow- Low carbs, low sodium and low fat. I have a whole list of food that I can't eat but it's too long to type out. My new life also consists of labs to check my blood levels twice a week and lots of Doctor's appointments. After the first year, I can resume all activities I once did and even travel outside the United States.

How do you remain so positive?
What other choice do I have? After almost dying, I am lucky to be alive. I would hate to waste this second chance on being negative. I do have my moments of pity and I get anxiety every time I go to the Doctors but I want to cherish every second of this new life. You don't realize how lucky you are until its almost been taken away. Yes, it sucks that this happened to me but I need to remember that God doesn't give you more than you can handle. If I can get through this... I can get through anything. My favorite quote sums it up...
"Happiness is a choice, not a destination."

Monday, February 21, 2011

I am home!!!

I AM HOME!!!! After my recent hospital stay, the Doctors not only discharged me from the hospital but also told me I can go back home to Roseville. After two months in San Francisco and a total of 25 days in a hospital bed I was ready!!! My fear of going home disappeared since I would still be monitored with twice a week labs and I still had access to my 24 hour transplant team.

We left SF in the pouring rain and I became the worst back seat driver...sorry Joe! The combination of the rain, not being on a freeway for two months and my steroids made me a very nervous person. My nerves went away as soon as we pulled into the driveway. I was home! I actually cried when walking through my house. This was the first step in getting back to my "new" normal life and I no longer felt like the transplant patient stuck in SF.

Overall, I am feeling good. I still get tired easily and my back hurts after standing/walking for long periods but I still feel so much better than before my transplant. I can't lift more than 20 pounds and still can't drive but enjoy getting out of the house. Jenny took me shopping yesterday and I had a blast. I also love visitors so feel free to come visit me!

I think Sammy is even more excited to be home. He was a good city dog but he missed our couch and hated not having a backyard.


My road to recovery continues but like Dorothy said, "THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME!"

Thursday, February 17, 2011

A reality check...

On Monday, February 14th I got a reality check of my new life. I felt great, got my labs done, went to breakfast, attended support group, delivered brownies to my nurses and was ready to go to my last clinic visit. I was expecting to be freed from the restriction of staying in San Francisco but instead I had a reality check. My labs from that morning showed my liver enzyme levels doubled in the wrong direction. The Dr ordered an ultrasound for that afternoon and a liver biopsy for Wednesday and he thought I may be having another episode of rejection.

During the ultrasound, the tech said he saw my hepatic artery pumping blood rather than having a steady flow. I made the mistake of Googling to find more information about the hepatic artery which put me into a panic when I read that it could result in the need for a second liver transplant. I was a ball of stress all night and all of Tuesday morning. On Tuesday I was on the phone getting a pep talk from my friend Joann ( also my boss) when my transplant nurse called and told me I needed to be admitted back into the hospital. After a shower and packing the essentials, I checked into the hospital at 1:30. I must be a VIP since I somehow lucked out and scored a private room with a great view.

Dr. Davern ( the god of hepatology) came and saw me and explained that he was concerned my artery was narrowing so he ordered a CT scan for that night and a biopsy for Wednesday morning. The CT scan required dye to be shot through my arteries to watch the blood flow. The CT scan made me feel crazy hot and gave the sensation that I peed my pants. The biopsy was done in my stomach with a needle and was much less painful than the previous biopsies done through my neck. The waiting game began as we waited for the results.

At about 5pm on Wednesday I got some good news. The results showed no rejection and after reviewing the CT scan with the surgeons they felt my artery needed to be watched but could be treated with aspirin. It will require follow up ultrasounds and they may need to fix it if it gets worse but overall the liver was doing good. They explained the biopsy showed some residual trauma from being removed from the transplant and that was the cause of the elevated counts.

I was released today and was told I can go back home to Roseville on Saturday!!!!! This extra hospital stay gave me a reality check on a few things:

  • Being readmitted doesn't mean I am going to die or need a new liver. It just means they can get tests and results faster.
  • Even though I feel great, I need to be ready for continued bumps in the road.
  • Never Google before talking to the Dr's.
  • Don't lose faith. Remain positive and let the Dr's worry and just do what they tell me.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

What can you do for me????

Like I have said before, everyone has offered so much support during this whole ordeal. My friends, sorority sisters, family, and co-workers have really helped me keep my chin up with presents, flowers, Facebook messages, and cards. Everyone has asked how they can help and I only have one request. Please consider becoming an organ donor and register your wishes at Donate Life or click the donate flag on your right. The thousands of people waiting for an organ transplant and me and my family thanks you.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Top 10 Laughable Moments

Below is a list of the top 10 things that made me laugh during this whole ordeal. Some I was awake for and others I was told about. They may not seem funny to all but now that the worst is over we can look back and laugh.


# 10. Med student diagnosis:
The Med Student started off by saying how nervous he was. So what did I do to make him more comfortable...started puking.  My parents and Joe didn't make things any easier on him by staring at him while he was trying to interview me.

# 9. Joe's rally beard:
Joe didn't shave once during my hospital stay and grew what he called my rally beard. I love him for the thought but at the end of three weeks, it looked horrible. It was patchy and hid his cute baby face.

# 8. What Month is it?"
Part of the daily routine was for the Dr's to come in and test my mental status.  They asked me basic questions like "what day is it", or "what city are you in." Well, I guess I got a little annoyed and when they asked me what month it was I responded, "Ugh! April!" Guess April is my favorite month??? (it was January)

# 7. Where are they?:
We slept in after a rough night and when my parents and Jenny weren't there when I woke up I freaked out thinking they died from carbon monoxide poisoning. They were not answering their cell phones... I was freaking out! Turns out they were getting coffee in the cafeteria and just didn't have cell phone service. They said they were at my room but I was sleeping. My dad bought a carbon monoxide alarm that day for the apartment!

# 6. The fall:
While holding an iPad and navigating the obstacles of the hospital room Jenny's Ugg boot suctioned to the floor and she went down. Miraculously she saved the iPad with what looked like an Olympic gymnastic move.  To top it off the nurses thought I went down and came rushing in to find it was Jenny that went down.

# 5. Sharing Livers:
Wasn't funny at the time but now that we look back we are laughing about my parents asking the Dr's if they can each donate half of their livers to make a whole liver for me. My mom doesn't think it's funny but I can just imagine the look on the Dr's face.

# 4. You want me to help?:
Joe gets freaked out at the sight or even thought of getting blood drawn. While taking 21 vial of blood, they handed Joe a full vial and asked him to wrap a sticker around it since it had to be hidden from light. The look on Joe's face was priceless. Let's just say that he is no longer freaked about blood.

# 3. Does that come with a tummy tuck?:
A surgeon came to visit and my first question for him was "Are you good." Once he replied "The Best", I asked him if he could throw in a tummy tuck while he's at it. He laughed and said "Uhhh...No!"

# 2. The surgeon with no eyes:
So, one of the side effects of drugs I was on is hallucinations.  I obviously experienced this side effect because when I woke up from surgery, I asked Joe how the surgeon operated on me with no eyes. Apparently I hallucinated that my surgeon had his eyes taped shut with slits cut so he could see.

# 1. She's a "Runner":
I was labeled as a "runner". After a CT scan I was waiting for transport to take me back to my room and was not feeling good and pissed. I was going to throw up and told Joe just to wheel me back to my room. We were halfway down the hall when the tech came running after us and told us we broke hospital policy. After that I lost my wheelchair privileges and was transported in my hospital bed.

Friday, February 11, 2011

A Ride on the Roller Coaster

All the Doctors and nurses warned me that my recovery would be like a roller coaster ride and I would have good and bad days. Well, this week was a bad week. On Tuesday I had an endoscopy procedure to remove a stint they put in my bile duct to keep it open so bile would flow freely. The procedure went great but on Wednesday I had a very bad day. I started to spike a fever and was very nauseous. I also was very emotional and had my first pity party for myself, I asked God....WHY ME?????

Luckily my pity party ended on Thursday and I think the nausea was caused by the antibiotics (cipro) they started me on for my endoscopy. During my clinic visit yesterday they gave me anti-nausea meds (compazine) and boy....that is a magical wonder drug. I am feeling back to almost normal. My fever and nausea did make my Doctor order a crap load of tests but they have all came back normal and we are just waiting for one more that should be back on Monday.

This minor set back is keeping me in SF for another week but I am okay with that. My transplant team and CPMC is my new comfort zone so I am actually nervous to leave SF. I think that it is also hitting me that I have my angels organ in my body so I see some therapy in my future.

Thanks for all the comments, well wishes, and prayers. It truly lifts me up.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

California Pacific Medical Center in SF- the hospital that saved my life.

Before being admitted, I never heard of CPMC but after this experience that hospital will forever hold a special place in my heart. The Hepatology team was amazing and every Doctor truly looked out for me. They would hug me and my family every time they saw us and would explain everything so we would understand. At one point, I made them cry and it just shows what huge hearts they have. At one of my clinic appointments, one Doctor told me that every Doctor in the hospital was praying for me to get the perfect liver.

The nurses were also amazing....even the one who wouldn't give me ice chips when I first woke up. While the Surgeons and Doctors helped save my life, I recovered so fast because of the care the nurses gave me. My body had a hard time adjusting to all the medication I was on and they never made me feel embarrassed or that I was a burden. I have a whole new respect for nurses and think they should all get a raise. The hospital has recognition cards and I must have filled out 25 of them for nurses!! I'm sure they think I went overboard but they deserve the recognition.

Check out the article below, my Doctors were named best Doctors in the nation listed under Hepatology! I will be seeing Dr. Bzowej for the rest of my life and great news....she has an office in Sacramento!!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

How am I doing?

It's amazing how good I feel! I guess I really needed a new liver since I haven't felt this good in months. I am eating and building my strength everyday. I still get tired easily and I get shooting pain from my nerves growing back but overall I feel good.

Every Monday and Thursday are called my "work days" since I have to get my blood drawn between 7-8am then I attend my support group meeting followed by a clinic appointment where they review my labs from the morning and make any adjustments to my medicine. Clinic visits always freak me out as my lab results have been all over the place and I never know if it's going to be good or bad news. My last clinic appt. on Monday, January 31 had some great news. The counts that they were worried about started to drop and they said I may get to leave San Francisco as early as next week.  I am keeping an open mind since it all depends on my labs results next week.  On Tuesday they are going to take out a stint that is stretching my bile duct since they also removed my gallbladder. That will be an out patient procedure.

My journey will still continue back in Roseville with weekly labs and monthly clinic visits. They also gave me a back to work date of July 5th which seems so long away but they said it will take that long to regain my strength and they want me to be cautious to prevent rejection. Thanks again for all the well wishes, comments and support. It truly keeps me going!!!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

A look into my new life

The transplant not only saved my life but also changed my life. Here is the top ten things that have changed:         
1. I can never be drunk again. RIP wine
2. My new eating lifestyle includes low sodium, low- fat and low carb foods. Basically I can't eat anything that comes from a box, boxes are full of sodium. I also can't eat pickles which I am craving!
3. I take all my medicine. I used to hate medicating myself with prescription drugs but now embrace the 20 plus pills I take everyday since without those pills, I can die. 
4. I have a new respect for nurses. They truly are angels and they took great care of me.
5. I have a new outlook on life. I am so happy to be alive that I will take some more time to stop and smell the roses instead of going going going and saying yes to everything.
6. I am learning how to let people take care of me rather than being so damn independent. I am accepting the fact that I need the help. 
7. I learned that my family, friends and co-workers are amazing. The support everyone has given me is amazing. The cards, the gifts, the prayers truly keep me going.
8. I truly believe praying works and there is a GOD looking after us.
9. I love feeling hungry. After not wanting to eat for a month, it is the best feeling in the world.
10. My donor is my Angel. I am so sad that a family lost a loved one but so grateful they chose to be an organ donor. I hope to one day meet the family so I can personally say, THANK YOU.

A visual timeline of my Hospital Stay. Don't worry, none were taken when I was in a coma or had a ventilator

21 vials of blood the night I was admitted to CPMC

Happy New Year!!!

My view from a room

The hospital is a teaching hospital and this med student had to try to diagnose me. I threw up halfway through his interview. Saw him after surgery and he said I was very helpful:)

My view

Another room view, I think?

They blew a vein in my hand

Room 330 in T-ICU. Don't really remember having this picture taken

Jenny my BFF- She was there a lot. Thank you for all your support Jenny!!

My parents. Couldn't ask for better parents! Thank you for everything!

My husband Joe- MY ROCK. He refused to shave until I was discharged. He called it my rally beard. I love you and couldn't ask for a better more supportive husband. He slept in a chair a lot during my stay.

The day I woke up after surgery. Vent was out! I am holding a suction tube that I had to cough up shit from my lungs into.

Harp player came into my  room to help relax me!

My medicine for the month. I will be on anti-rejection drugs for the rest of my life.



My medical alert necklace. My parents spoiled me and upgraded to 14K gold since I have to wear it for the rest of my life.

My neck wounds from my central line and my liver biopsy. A needle went into my neck and down to my liver for the biopsy while I was wide awake... gives me the willies!

The pumped me full of liquids and my face was so swollen!

Day I got my staples out. Sorry it's sideways...

Why the hell I needed a liver transplant....part 2

The last day I really remember is New Years Day so the rest of the story is what I was told by Joe, my parents and Jenny.

December 30th-January 3rd: I was in room 330 in the Transitional Intensive Care Unit(T-ICU). I had the best, most fun nurses on that floor..huge shout out to Victoria, JD, Roy and Russell. They made me laugh in between puking and were just great. They still were hopeful my liver would recover since my mind was clear and I was still as sharp as a tack. Once your mind goes, they call it encephalopathy since the toxins cannot be cleared from your system and you start being confused and lethargic. They told Joe what to look for and he needed to notify my Dr if he saw any signs.

January 4th: I became very lethargic showing signs of encephalopathy and Joe notified the Dr's and they transferred me to the Intensive Care Unit(ICU) immediately. They also did a liver biopsy but put me on the transplant list before they even got the results back since I started to go downhill fast. You are listed on the transplant list in order of your MELD score and my MELD score was the highest of 40 so I was listed number one on the West Coast. My liver biopsy came back that half of my liver was dead.

January 5th: I started to throw up uncontrollably and they became really worried that I would exhaust myself and not be able to be operated on so they put me in a medically induced coma using the same drug they euthanize people with called Pentobarbital. They also put me on a ventilator and gave me the same Drug that killed Michael Jackson, Propfol. A liver was found but it wasn't good enough so they turned it down.

January 6th: My brain started to swell so they drilled a hole in my skull and put a bolt in my skull to relieve the pressure. They called it my unicorn since that is what it resembled. They were able to watch my brain waves and I was monitored by a neurosurgeon. They were unable to do surgery until I had zero pressure since pressure would cause brain damage. They also cooled my body to 90 degrees to help prevent additional swelling in my brain A second liver was found, a surgeon rushed to Stanford to look at it but it was determined to be a bad liver so they didn't take it. Nurses Mary, Emily and NP Tanya were my angels and worked all day and night to get me stable enough to survive surgery.

January 7th: The scariest day for my family and friends. I needed a liver bad yet all the ones presented were not good enough and I continued to be in bad shape. My brother was called and told he needed to be there since they were not sure how much longer I would live without a new liver. Basically, they thought I may die.

January 8th: At midnight, NP Tanya called Joe and my parents that they think they may have the perfect liver in LA. A surgeon was flying down to LA to look at it. At 7am, the best news came...the liver was a perfect match and I would be going into surgery at 9am. The surgery took 6 hours and the surgeon came out and told the waiting room of family and friends that the liver is working great and they could see me in 30 minutes! He also told my family that my old liver was totally dead and wasn't functioning at all. My donor, my angel truly saved my life. I think about my donor everyday and hope to one day meet their family to say thank you. 

January 9th- 12th: I started waking up on the 9th and they took out my ventilator but discovered I went into pulmonary adema- fluid around the lungs and I wasn't able to catch my breath. They put the ventilator back in and sedated me until January 12. I woke up with the ventilator still in and I freaked out. The Dr's wanted to leave it in just to make sure I could breathe on my own. After about an hour of crying, I did hand motions to ask for a paper and pen and wrote my Dr a note begging them to take out the vent. They did and it was the best feeling ever!! I was starving when I woke up but they didn't even want me to have ice chips but later talked a Dr into letting me have some food. They gave me tea and an icee and it was the best thing I thought I ever ate in my life! My skin was already back to normal and no longer glowing yellow. I was still loaded with drugs so was quite confused and thought my surgery was the day before so Joe had to break it to me that it was actually 5 days prior.

January 13th- 14th: After keeping down food, they removed my feeding tube and my catheter. Physical Therapy came and got me out of bed and I ate breakfast in a chair. They got me to walk and on the 14th I was moved to the 6th floor.

January 15th-16th: I started to get fevers so they did a liver biopsy and determined I was rejecting my liver. I was scared but they said rejection meant my immune system was stronger than they thought and I recognized my liver was new so I was trying to reject it. They upped my steroids and that turned around the rejection. They also did a procedure called ERCP where they changed the position of a stint in my bile duct. I guess my bile duct is small so they used the stint to stretch it open. They will be taking out the stint in the next week or two.

January 17th-18th: I got the ok to be discharged on the 17th but since it was the MLK Holiday, the liver transplant coordinator was off and she needed to review my medicine with me before I was able to be discharged. After 20 days in the hospital, I was discharged on Tuesday the 18th.

Part of getting a transplant is that you need to stay within the city for follow up appointments so my new home was an apartment in SF.